Dear Srila Prabhupada,
Please accept my most humble obeisances.nama om vishnu-padaya krishna-preshthaya bhu-tale
srimate bhaktivedanta-svamin iti namine
"I offer my respectful obeisances unto His Divine Grace A. C. Bhaktivedanta Swami Prabhupada, who is very dear to Lord Krishna, having taken shelter at His lotus feet."
namas te sarasvate deve gaura-vani-pracarine
nirvisesha-sunyavadi-pascatya-desa-tarine
"Our respectful obeisances are unto you, O spiritual master who is kindly preaching the message of Lord Caitanyadeva and delivering the Western countries, which are filled with impersonalism and voidism."
From my position deep within the womb of material nature I surrender to You.
Pariksit Maharaja saw Krishna briefly when he was within the womb of his mother as Krishna appeared before Parksit Maharaja to protect him from the brahmastra weapon thrown by Asvatama.
When Maharaja Pariksit took birth he searched his entire life for Krishna, that wonderful person he saw while yet unborn.
Briefly I saw You Srila Prabhupada, Krishna's Pure Devotee. By Your grace I was able to use my material body and senses in Krishna's service and experience true freedom from the material modes of nature while yet still within the womb of material nature, unborn.
After Your departure I searched and search for You. I could not find You anywhere and felt I would simply rot within the womb. But a seed had been planted. It is taking some time for it to germinate. Though I still remain within the womb of material nature I am deriving nourishment from Your books and am growing day by day.
It is interesting to note that Pariksit Maharaja achieved perfection by hearing Srimad Bhagavatam. He searched his entire life for Krishna and finally found Krishna in the Srimad Bhagavatam by the mercy of his spiritual master, Sukadeva goswami.
What is even more interesting is that Sukadeva goswami Himself remained within the womb of his mother for sixteen years with no desire at all to come out. It wasn't until he heard, even while still within the womb, Srimad Bhagavatamfrom his father, Srila Vyasadeva that he took birth.
Srila Prabhupada, I am deep within the womb of material nature. Your books are like the umbilical cord that connects me to Sri Sri Radha Krishna, my source of life.
You have compared the chanting of the Hare Krishna mantra to a child calling for its mother. Specifically the mother's breast for nourishment and safety. I am not even at that point, I am still within the womb. As such I am not of much use to your mission. My chanting is more like the sucking of an embryo through the umbilical cord.
You are feeding me. Hearing and chanting is the substance of my life. I am hungry to grow. Oh Srila Prabhupada, someday when I am actually born, when I leave the womb of material nature in my new spiritual body I will be so happy. At some point I may even be of some practical use to You in your mission to spiritually feed the other materially conditioned spirit souls who are just like me, deep within the womb of material nature.
Until that time I remain your very, very insignificant disciple.
Meena Devi Dasi
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