Great miracle today. Poor old Dad, 95. Nothing works. His body is a mess.
Can hardly walk. And now also his mind is becoming feeble. I accompanied him to
the doctor.
After the examination we were waiting on a stone bench near the entrance to
the medical building. There were several similar benches lined along the walk
way to the parking lot under a canopy. People were coming and going to their
doctors. Mostly limping or in wheel chairs. Father was trying to be cheerful
but there was a mood of hopelessness underlying whatever he said, A kind of
desperate sadness and depression. Not like him. He is usually very cheerful
even in the most difficult situations.
He was grumbling. Complaining. Whining. It was very difficul to hear the
constant stream of negativity and misery as it poured forth. I was chanting
softly on my beads. But all of a sudden I just started loudly reciting mantras
I knew from the Gita, and Isopanishad, pranams. I couldn't chant the Maha
Mantra because he is very resistant to Krishna's name. So it was other Names of
the Lord that streamed out.
The people walking by began to smile. And I realized we were in public sankirtan. Several months ago I expressed a strong desire to the Lord that my
father could go on sankirtana before he dies. Today we were on sankirtana.
This went on for some time. One man stopped when He heard Hari... He did a
complete about face. He was glowing and looked very beautiful. He was
originally from the Islands. We talked for quite sometime. The three of us. All
topics of devotional service. At one point we were discussing reading
scriptures and how reading out loud engages three of the five senses... the
tongue, the eyes and the ears...and so captures the mind from wandering. He hadn't thought about it that way and was
accustomed to reading silently and even praying silently. But now he wanted to
read and pray out loud.
My father added that it was not just by practicing something that we find
God. But we find him through His helpers and His helpers are everywhere. Which
quite stunned me, because that is the quintessence of devotional service.
We three discussed many things like, the importance of surrendering, love
of God, the goal of life, how difficult situations help us to advance. The
material world had dissolved and were we simply swimming in the ocean of
nectar.
Sri Krishna Chaitanya sankirtana movement, ki jaya.
Meena, it's so profound for your Dad to get this before his passing, you are Krishna's vehicle..
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